Live everything, live questions now?

昨天上午看到一段话,看上去蛮治愈的,如下。

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.

前晚和L去五道口WU CLUB玩了一下,这是第二次去,之前老弟来北京找我玩时一起去了一次。刚进去就碰到了一个American boy(简称AB)和一个South Korean boy(简称SKB),他们俩也一起来的。很快我们四个就一起喝了酒,抽了烟,去舞池跳了舞,玩了起来。    在舞池中,AB看上了一个Chinese girl(简称CG),上前搭讪献殷勤,CG貌似对AB不太感冒。    SKB长得又高又帅,刚进场时,吧台旁,碰到他和AB,他就用中文笑着对我说,请你喝酒啊,随即指了指吧台上的一杯酒。我靠,那一秒钟,我感觉这不就是韩剧里的阔少吗,虽然那杯酒就5RMB,但还是有点受宠若惊。SKB的中文讲得相当不错,不仔细点听都会误以为他是中国人,而且SKB相当有亲和力,让人想要和他一起玩。我想,生活中应该很多女孩会喜欢SKB这样的吧。

L在舞池里一直帮着撮合AB和CG。

我呢,在舞池里跳了一会后,就四处闲逛了,看看周围的面孔。据我统计,这里面的男女比例也有点失衡,不是2:1就是1.5:1,不开心。

之后,我们四个一起简单聊了一会,喝了酒。AB说他在北京边学习边工作,还说北京和纽约一样,lots of traffic;SKB说他已经在中国待了四年(难怪中文这么流利),但是第一次来WU CLUB玩(really?)。已经午夜1点30了,AB和SKB说有事要先走,送他们时,AB还对之前舞池里的那位CG念念不忘,问我,Why doesn’t she like me, she is so cute,我想说“你不是她的菜”,但又不知道怎么表达,只得来了句Maybe you are not her taste(刚刚查了查,说是you are not her style/type/cup of tea都可以表达这个意思)。

我和L又接着玩。我们看到一张table上有一个女孩,L怂恿我说,咱们过去搭讪吧。L已经很多次这样了,看到有合适的女孩,他就会怂恿我跟他一起去搭讪,当我战胜了自身的胆怯,跟他过去之后,他就自己可劲地和别人聊了起来,根本不给我插话的机会。哎,交友不慎。但事实上我还是买了两杯酒和L一起走了过去,女孩在等人,L说,我们陪你聊会天吧,你朋友到了我们就走。女孩点了点头。我和L坐下后你一句我一句的跟女孩说着。女孩说到她是人大的,我就想,要不加个微信吧,以后有机会让她带着转转人大,还没去过呢。无奈,女孩无论如何也不同意,耍宝卖萌,请客喝酒,使尽解数,最后女孩说,你不是说你是北邮的吗,我不相信,你给我看学生证。我说,是不是我给你看了学生证你就加我微信,女孩又点了点头。

已经午夜3点了。L又找了个女孩聊了起来。我有点累了,在吧台旁靠着。右手边有几个挺漂亮的女孩,在聊着什么,我正在考虑要不要搭个讪,突然她们中的一个看到了我,说了声Hi,Hi,我回应到。然后知道了她们一个叫Mia,一个叫Ella,还有一个叫Sarah。Mia让Sarah拿烟出来抽,Sarah找了找,表示没有了。我说,I’ll buy one for you。    和Mia聊了聊,她说她来自美国,在纽约学习中文,正和Ella和Sarah环球旅行,(说到环球旅行,感觉在北京的Bar或者Club里已经碰到好多国际友人了:Germany、America、Singapore、Netherland、Russia、France、Turkey、South Korea、Pakistan、Kazakhstan、Dubai、England、Spain、Australia、Syria、Brazil,有男有女,有机会一定要去他们的国家看看)已经去了Germany、France、Italy、Spain。说到Spain时,她突然激动了起来,说,I love Bacelona,do you play football。Sure,我回答到。然后她用中文说,你们男人认为女人都不懂足球,可我懂,我最爱Bacelona,Messi、Pique、Puyol…一边说着一边煞有介事地用手指计数,那样子真可爱,像是一个小孩,极力在证明什么。我说,One of my best friends also likes Bacelona very much。    和Mia聊天的整个过程里,她基本上是用中文,我基本上是用英文,略微有点奇怪,或许我想练习说英语,她想练习说汉语,而“你们男人认为女人都不懂足球,可我懂”这句话她至少强调了三次。最后让我意想不到的是,她竟央求我给她买杯可乐,她说她只有30块了,还要打车回去。我很爽快地答应了,明知道她多半是在骗我,但是她央求的表情,略微皱着眉头,带着点期盼,很可爱,让人不忍拒绝啊。而且我以前也被外国友人请过,就当是回馈国际社会吧。

最后我们合影留了念。中间的是Mia,右边是Ella,照相的时候Sarah不知道去哪了。    温馨提示:想去五道口玩的童鞋记得一定要带着学生证噢,有可能会免门票的,不能免门票也是可以买学生票的噢。

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Christmas Eve

Somehow, I feel a little bit lonely in this festival night. I want to keep calm just like an ordinary night, but the atmosphere around you seems to tell you that you need to do something different. So I am confused, I don’t know how to do different things, I have no girlfriend, and I don’t know  whom should I invite out.

Yeah, you have to find some treats for yourself to spend the long cold night, you finally have to be calm  after lots of noise and agitation. This is life itself?

Listening the Prelude-The Atlas March, so many feeilngs and scenes have came forth, making me want to sob.

So many times, so many times when I get boring or hopeless or depressed or frustrated or something, I found the root cause and solution to get rid of it is to get a peaceful heart, you can get some music to help you through it. Life is hard and at the same time life is unique for everyone,  never give up exploring yourself and exploring the world around you, carpe diem, embrace youeslef, embrace others, embrace the world.